futurebird's Diaryland Diary

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2004-11-29 - Where I hang out now...
2004-01-29 - Snow Day!
2003-11-30 - macy's and turkey
2003-10-05 - failing
2003-09-07 - bulbophyllum medusa
2003-08-30 - empty place
2003-08-28 - pink cymbidiums
2003-08-27 - the plants
2003-08-19 - pink
2003-08-17 - fear of pain
2003-08-14 - lights out
2003-05-09 - my little trees
2003-05-08 - The air hummed with the rustle of resumes, pressed shirts and nervousness.
2003-05-05 - hound dreams
2003-05-04 - my baby orchid
2003-04-16 - Me? A teacher?!?
2003-03-25 - soon.
2003-03-13 - I made some postcards
2003-03-04 - the cold got to my bones
2003-03-03 - I�m ready to start again.
2002-12-26 -

2002
cold
2002-12-23 - games of chance
2002-12-16 - new zealand dreams
2002-12-14 - how to talk about plays
2002-12-10 - the MTA strikes back
2002-12-05 - firefighter dreams
2002-12-03 - vermont
2002-11-22 - rather ill
2002-11-21 - the diplomat
2002-11-18 - it worked out ok
2002-11-09 - the top third, nothing less
2002-10-29 - I'll run it someday
2002-10-20 - 100 years at least, please
2002-09-24 - new season
2002-09-18 - I need light
2002-09-17 - out of the blue
2002-08-29 - the way of darkness
2002-08-26 - no time like the present
2002-08-20 - every day
2002-08-18 - happy birthday
2002-08-14 - 23 years of breathing
2002-08-05 - big livingroom
2002-07-29 - no ghosts for me, thank you
2002-07-26 - the ultimate decadence
2002-07-23 - everest be dammed
2002-07-22 - winter is coming soon
2002-07-18 - a madman wrapped in a red blanket
2002-07-16 - shifty people
2000-07-06 - running numbers
2002-07-03 - some of my drawings
2002-06-28 - coup de�maturity
2002-06-24 - can�t put a dream in a box
2002-06-11 - friends
2002-06-05 - the poison ivy is always greener on the other side of the ditch
2002-05-21 - lost
2002-05-17 - AIDS walk
2002-04-29 - it's not may... but....
2002-04-27 - skates
2002-04-14 - my own race
2002-04-09 - it�s a very exciting week
2002-04-08 - one city
2002-04-07 - NYC 8000
2002-04-04 - times takes a cigarette
2002-03-29 - another year without any heaven
2002-03-27 - drip drip drip
2002-03-23 - 20 miles
2002-03-12 - my new hat
2002-03-10 - the spinster
2002-03-07 - my new ear plugs
2002-03-06 - everything in order
2002-02-14 - man 'a my dreams
2002-02-10 - flying ostrich
2002-01-26 - made for the motion of running
2002-01-19 - Will she ever catch on? (poetry)
2002-01-07 - I will kill you with my love
2002-01-03 -

2001
no rule.
2001-12-26 - I had a good time, but I am old now
2001-12-11 - a blank wall
2001-12-07 - make new friends, but keep the old
2001-12-01 - 22 going on 7
2001-11-17 - I'm lucky!
2001-11-13 - someone famous that I�ve never heard of
2001-11-10 - something to look forward to
2001-10-26 - judgmental and anti-social
2001-10-24 - brooklyn bridge
2001-10-16 - life is delicious
2001-10-06 - oh thank god the tourists are back
2001-10-02 - getting back to normal
2001-09-25 - catching up (many photos)
2001-09-11 - word trade center is gone now
2001-08-24 - katz
2001-08-20 - then they laugh at you
2001-08-19 - happy birthday
2001-08-16 - stuck the fuck up
2001-08-15 - An atheist puritan
2000-08-13 - small town life
2001-08-18 - words
2001-08-04 - 2600
1979-07-31 - rush hour
2001-07-28 - there is a space for me
1978-07-26 - money for art
2001-07-25 - everything is lists
1979-07-23 - first day
1979-07-22 - You gonna stand for that?!
1979-07-21 - I'm going out!!
1979-07-19 - Someone wants me to live!
2001-07-19 - the hard working single woman
1979-07-16 - O Roosevelt Island!
1979-07-15 - another view
1979-07-15 - deep cravings
2001-07-11 - like gods
1979-07-10 - windows
1979-07-09 - Like sleepwalkers with eyes that look awake.
2001-07-05 - to all the heros
2001-07-03 - maybe it's me
1979-06-30 - stupid nostalgia
2001-06-29 - the city wakes up
2001-06-27 - invisible bird?
2001-06-26 - handmaids and footmen
2001-06-19 - Y-W-C-A!
2001-06-14 - Back in Pittsburgh
2001-06-05 - A New Yorker
2001-05-26 - more to come
1979-05-22 - bfa
1978-05-21 - my new home
2001-05-16 - still in NY
2001-05-15 - ny
2001-05-10 - THE FUTURE
1978-05-07 - What a strange sensation . . .
1978-05-07 - I wish for a endless winter
1978-05-04 - a house, a job and a car
1978-05-03 - I don't have a trust fund
2001-04-29 - 92,070 miles
2001-04-29 - Thank you.
2001-04-28 - WE ARE LUCKY BASTARDS
2001-04-23 - the dogs
2001-04-23 - ran out of the sidewalk
2001-04-20 - night shift and the cold rain
2001-04-16 - Is that too much to ask? Maybe it is.
2001-04-11 - modernism
2001-04-1 - speakeasy
2001-03-30 - not-a-woman
2001-03-28 - my first pot of coffee
2001-03-27 - travellers
2001-03-26 - stay happy
2001-03-24 - Kraka-Hoa
2001-03-23 - runner's road rage
2001-03-23 - the birds are screaming
2001-03-21 - the days fall down, marching towards Certain Nothing
2001-03-19 - The Anarchist Housewife
2001-03-18 - For Sound and Fury
2001-03-16 - The wreckage is a part of the message.
2001-03-15 - (in)coherent
2001-03-11 - the inner misanthrope
2001-03-03 - Krakatoa
2001-03-02 - Sometimes I wish that I was the fastest woman in the world.
2001-02-25 - angry people
2001-02-25 - this is the kind of stuff that seems to be well received
2001-02-22 - huge amounts or nothing at all
2001-02-20 - the run part III - extremity
2001-02-18 - the run -- part II
2001-02-18 - the run -- part I
2001-02-15 - the hillman
2001-02-15 - Emily Murray (the final word)
2001-02-14 - bread, crit and ugly
2001-02-13 - before crit
2001-02-12 - seeing a play has saved my life
2001-02-12 - 14 miles
2001-02-07 - a riot!
2001-02-07 - Introspection, it�s deadly.
2001-02-05 - god is in the
2001-02-04 - My nervous energy isn�t helping.
2001-02-03 - compelled by some brutish animal force to go on living
2001-02-01 - Like a church just after the voices of the choir stop.
2001-01-31 - red was black
2001-01-30 - not spring! anything but that!
2001-01-29 - I panicked
2001-01-26 - away
2001-01-26 - All of my efforts were failures anyway.
2001-01-26 - I always thought they were random and had nothing to do with me.
2001-01-24 - Will they lie to us?
2001-01-23 - beast that drives her forward
2001-01-22 - An expression of freedom of power and balance.
2001-01-21 - I could just walk away
2001-01-21 - lease on life
2001-01-20 - There will be no escape from the comedy.
2001-01-19 - just to prove that they are �middle class�
2001-01-18 - I want to get 100s of letters
2001-01-17 - I ran into the cops.
2001-01-16 - a convincing performance
2001-01-15 - techno-romancing
2001-01-12 - Lather. Rinse. Repeat.
2001-01-11 - shocking and graphic
2001-01-11 - None of that stuff reached me.
2001-01-10 - shoulders that built the house he was in
2001-01-09 - I didn�t even know it�s name.
2001-01-09 - get stupid
2001-01-07 - walk on the snow and not leave footprints
2001-01-07 - soon the Christmas tress will be out on the lawns
2001-01-07 - heroes
2001-01-06 - I�m no good at bars
2001-01-06 - foot print artwork
2001-01-04 - The pulpit was empty:
2001-01-03 - It was just a pot of tea.
2001-01-02 - A life of met assumptions: good as death.
2000-12-31 -

2000
the New York on New Year's of my dreams
2000-12-31 - �The first boy that we�ll ever have sex with is alive right now.�
2000-12-30 - mental energy from the silence
2000-12-30 - in the big shadow of the earth
2000-12-29 - the ancient fire sharing ritual
2000-12-28 - the crowing hen
2000-12-28 - Ray Bradbury Men?
2000-12-28 - Owen
2000-12-28 - fast cars and sex
2000-12-26 - the ribbon wraps around my wrist
2000-12-25 - This three days is gathering.
2000-12-24 - the month finds sleep
2000-12-22 - stripped or saved
2000-12-22 - At least I didn�t lose to that dog.
2000-12-21 - No more directionless light?
2000-12-21 - getting the dirt out, personally
2000-12-19 - I go library hopping
2000-12-19 - A few will be loved.
2000-12-18 - Bill Kofmehl
2000-12-18 - Water is a kind of panicia.
2000-12-18 - in spite of the ice crystals
2000-12-17 - I was trying to shake something off of me
2000-12-16 - Everything went pale for an instant.
2000-12-16 - it must be very weak and vulnerable
2000-12-15 - �Sex, Reason and War�
2000-12-14 - human all too human
2000-12-14 - Emily Murray
2000-12-14 - I can write about it, though!
2000-12-12 - They found Emily Murray.
2000-11-10 - link to me
2000-12-12 - was I your first choice?
2000-12-11 - no one is crazy part II
2000-12-11 - No one is crazy here.
2000-12-11 - without so much as a can of soup
2000-12-10 - Where is it from.
2000-12-10 - random
2000-12-10 - I among the 1000s might not be wrong!
2000-12-09 - I want to scrub it away.
2000-12-07 - birth vs. decay
2000-12-07 - But I don�t want to.
2000-12-06 - sword of logic
2000-12-04 - That�s not an option.
2000-12-04 - to all of the cold people
2000-12-04 - low rising tree covered hills
2000-12-04 - only spending time
2000-12-03 - When will the winter end?
2000-12-03 - a triumph of culture over brute instinct
2000-12-03 - I can�t breath water
2000-12-03 - it begins now
2000-12-02 - autopilot
2000-12-01 - I have what it takes
2000-11-30 - people need pennies
2000-11-30 - I dreamed about the engines that drive cities
2000-11-29 - my little flight of megalomania
2000-11-29 - a weary time for me
2000-11-27 - ideologue
2000-11-27 - Where is Emily Murray?
2000-11-26 - I thought I might tremble to pieces
2000-11-26 - ugly thoughts I have tonight
2000-11-25 - terrible euphoria
2000-11-24 - notary public
2000-11-23 - This doesn't seem anything like life!
2000-11-22 - a triumph of disorder
2000-11-22 - a wolf raised by sheep
2000-11-22 - no class?
2000-11-21 - silence is terrifying sometimes
2000-11-21 - empathy
2000-11-21 - Balance. Jesus!
2000-11-20 - the text isn�t so scary
2000-11-20 - I surfaced
2000-11-19 - the beauty of decay
2000-11-18 - koyaanisqatsi
2000-11-15 - seen at night
2000-11-15 - winter wish
2000-11-14 - shot at it
2000-11-14 - light spills in
2000-11-14 - run for your life
2000-11-12 - pain is truth
2000-11-10 - don't go out
2000-11-10 - turn the tide
2000-11-10 - I have changed
2000-11-09 - beautiful people
2000-11-09 - All he had seen was ashes
2000-11-09 - universe symphony
2000-11-08 - poetry time
2000-11-08 - the animal that looks up
2000-11-04 - first day of a new love?