futurebird's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- can’t put a dream in a box I unplugged the refrigerator. The noise it made was driving me nuts. It was empty and a waste of energy, anyway. Without the humming my apartment is a much nicer place—I can hear the sunlight. I shop on ebay now and then. I don’t buy much (got no cash, see?) Two weeks ago I found a pair of jadeite green cups. (I didn’t know what “jadeite” was, but it’s from the 40s and 50s and sort of popular now I think due to Martha Stuart, That’s almost enough to make me hate the stuff!) The cups were powder green, milky glass; the light seemed to hover in them. They reminded me of something—the kind of memory that makes you aches with sadness but you go on thinking of it anyway. I couldn’t name it—but I was enamoured. They were on sale for $1. “Old cups?” I thought “why not, they’re cheap.” But, I had no idea that these cups would go so high… ---but I’m getting ahead of myself. When I was in university I would sit in the social sciences student lounge (they had these miserable boxish chairs stained with coffee and an old humming soda machine) I would go there and draw in a little book I had. For a few weeks I was obsessed with the image of two coffee cups (or teacups) filled with coffee and steaming. That was all I drew. It was a symbol of happiness for me. I could look at the drawings and remember what it was like to have two cups with handles in opposition, brim to brim on the table in front of me—and across from me, another person. Years have past but I’m still obsessed with that image. So I had to have these cups on ebay. They went up to $17 very quickly, and I almost gave up on them but then I could not stand it, they were just like the drawing. $23.00 plus shipping. I was so happy to win them. I paid right away. I waited. They came today, broken. They were insured, but I don’t want cups. I don’t need two anyway. Don’t know what I was thinking. You can’t put a dream in a box. 020624_2.html - 2002-06-24 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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