futurebird's Diaryland Diary
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my little flight of megalomania
I'm keeping track of how much water I drink.
The sky went dark all of a sudden. I’m supposed to be this engine of empirical thought, but I’m so susceptible to superstitions. When the sky went dark the first thing I thought was “Must be a bad sign . . .” Maybe it is, in a way. Something deep in this animal knows it’s time to run for cover before the sky weeps and the streets flood over.
I’m going on next to zero sleep so the pain is here, my neck and my jaw keep getting tighter and tighter. I’m being wound up and there seems to be no chance of release. I keep the visine in the fridge now, it’s the only way to cool the pain in the eyes.
Maybe there’s some truth to my little flight of megalomania. The sky has darkened because I feel as though it ought to be 6:30p-- and so my deep longing for the sun to set has pulled the clouds over the sun . . . and made night come early.
18:39:16 - 2000-11-29
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