futurebird's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ugly thoughts I have tonight
I really wanted to sleep with AB but Chad was in the way. He just wouldn�t leave! He�s so bitter. Does he have to project it on to everyone else? And why couldn�t he just leave so I could talk to AB alone? It�s not fair that I think this way, I guess. I don�t even know where AB is, emotionally. Sleeping with another guy would bring a kind of closure to my thing with Giacamo. I want to think I�m not going to get hurt when he tosses me aside, as I�m certain he will. Maybe I should just toss him first. I�m so selfish. What ugly thoughts I have tonight! I think I�ll fast this week. Now�s the time for work and devotion not emotional drama. Still, a little triste would have been so right-- and felt so good. I�m going to go wash myself and see if I can forget all this. 08:35:06 - 2000-11-26 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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