futurebird's Diaryland Diary
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my little flight of megalomania
I'm keeping track of how much water I drink.
The sky went dark all of a sudden. I�m supposed to be this engine of empirical thought, but I�m so susceptible to superstitions. When the sky went dark the first thing I thought was �Must be a bad sign . . .� Maybe it is, in a way. Something deep in this animal knows it�s time to run for cover before the sky weeps and the streets flood over.
I�m going on next to zero sleep so the pain is here, my neck and my jaw keep getting tighter and tighter. I�m being wound up and there seems to be no chance of release. I keep the visine in the fridge now, it�s the only way to cool the pain in the eyes.
Maybe there�s some truth to my little flight of megalomania. The sky has darkened because I feel as though it ought to be 6:30p-- and so my deep longing for the sun to set has pulled the clouds over the sun . . . and made night come early.
18:39:16 - 2000-11-29
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