futurebird's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- get stupid get stupid. that brain you�ve got: all the math running around in it. It�s so over rated, the tension: holding in your gut and keeping your mouth closed. who, dearest susan, do you think you are? better than a person? better than human? you�re not. you�ll never be. No matter how hard you grind your jaw. there are only so many hours to live. only so many seasons to drink up. only so many nights to sleep. How many can you stand to sleep alone before you take your eyes out, searching for catharsis? not too many. I figured out the bars. I was no good at bars but that's because the whole time I was in them I was never there. until tonight. It not for you it�s for us. you can�t win because it�s just not that kind of game! you�ve got to help the party to grow. help them to have fun. give up the mighty struggle and feed whatever fire is growing . . . how can i explain . . .? words don�t fit it. I�m happy now. oh for once I'm happy! 08:11:02 - 2001-01-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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