futurebird's Diaryland Diary
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stupid nostalgia
Today I�ve been fighting these overwhelming waves of nostalgia. I miss school. I miss having a few friends around. I want to go back in time. Why, I don�t know, I was miserable then. I gathered together all of the things in my room that reminded me of the past. A CD of Philip Glass music Nick made for me, my day-journal from freshmen year, My ID and �mini-diploma� (yes they give everyone a mini ones when we leave) the movie Chad and I watched together, M�s name tag from this conference he took me too, a postcard from Nevada ... my old key and laundry card...
What is wrong with me? Maybe I should burn all this stuff. I hate keeping junk around that reminds me of the past. It seems like I can get nostalgic about anything... even things I hated. Maybe it�s not that I long to back there that makes me so sad, maybe it�s just that even if I wanted to, I know I couldn�t go back.
Well, that�s not so bad, I guess.
4:05 p.m. - 1979-06-30
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